You never know

You never know when those words will rock your world. You never know when the fairy tale will end. You never know how much you can take, until you can't take any more. You never know how strong you are until you have everything to lose. You never know how quiet you can be until the words you have mean nothing. You never know how you will make it through, but time after time you do. You never know who is watching you pick up the pieces with grace and dignity, learning from your example. You never know when love will be all you have left and that's all that mattered all along.

Most days I am a confident woman. At peace with my past. Comfortable with my present. Anxious to see the future. There are so many dreams that are achieved each day by so many people that I love</p>
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side note months later: little did i know how fucking hard the next few days after this post would end up being. Feb 25 and I'm still not sure I'm ok.

Ohhh my eye

Most days I seem to feel ok. Most days I make it pain free. Most days I don't have to worry about the sun, or heat, or cold, or smells making the next few hours impossible. You may get headaches, you may get migraines, you may have sinus issues. But until you deal with a tumor behind your eye, you don't understand this pain. Poke your foot with an ice pick from the bottom straight through to the top of your skull. Then you'll get it.
Today is a simi-shitty day. My eye could fall out in the floor and as long as I could rub behind it, I would be ok.
It's kind of crazy that I am being denied care. I am totally not used to not getting what I want. The wait will do me good.

Starting over

Here starts the story of the rest of this journey, as we continue trying to find treatment for these tumors that plague me. I hope my trails and tribulations can perhaps save some other persons life.
I will be posting research findings and tips and techniques that have helped me live each day to its fullest.
Thanks for reading, more to come in the near future.

The Housewife has gone mobile.

Sewing, cooking, breathing, and fighting for wellness. Been gone for a bit, and a lot has changed. But life is amazing and love is still strong!!

Heaven Got a Little Better Today

Death is not a topic that I am very familiar with. I have lost very few people that were really close to me. But I have faced my own mortality a time or two. When the bright light over takes me, and I have to give an account of all the crappy things I've done in my life, I really hope the few good ones add up to enough to get me in to the ghetto of Heaven!
I find it hard to process the rainbow of emotions felt when someone passes away. I guess I have a bad problem that most people that I knew who have died happen to be one on one with Jesus and I know they went to Heaven. 

I know he looks a little young, but this is the love of my life and I can not WAIT for him to reside with me!!!!! Bring on May/June 2012!!! I've been waiting for this for a decade!