He's only 17

At 17 there are many things that lay ahead for a young man. He has the potential to be anything, go anywhere, see and experience the entire world! Yet he also has the potential to live a hard, unproductive life. A life of sorrow. A life of guilt. A life filled with trials and tribulations. How cosmically unbecoming is it that when we seem to do everything right in our lives, troubles still come our way?
I pray for this young man each and every day. I pray for his wisdom to work, for his judgement to be kind, and for his decisions to be productive towards his future. He has earth shattering potential locked inside of him. He is a crop duster with fighter pilot dreams! He is a young boy on a merry-go-round horse with visions of riding bulls for a living. He is my heart, my job, my oldest friend. He grew inside my tummy, he changed my life forever, and I didn't mind a bit! He has loved me unconditionally when I least deserved it. He has made me laugh, made me cry, made me mad, made me wonder "why"?!?!!!
At 17, I was stupid, yet wise beyond my years. I was irresponsible, but trusted with so many precious gifts. I was always blessed! And I was about to become a mom, to a young man turning 17 this year.
It is hard to believe that the 2nd quarter of my life has passed so quickly. I feel as if I have just been a by-stander. What will the next 17 years bring? I can't wait to see.
Happy Birthday Cody James! You are the most precious boy and I can't wait to see the man you grow in to! I love you!!!

I saw your face

The other day, we were sitting in the hospital. I saw your face. I saw your fear. I saw your soul. I saw your heart, where it beats, where it lives. I saw the love that radiated out of you as you stepped toward your loved one and hugged them. I saw you trimble as they told you of their trials and tribulations. I saw you stand tall, you are a mighty oak tree in a stiff breeze. I saw you sigh as his eyes slowly closed, he was only resting. I saw you become a child, looking at your fathers face, this diagnoses of colon cancer looming over us all so heavy. I saw you become stronger, knowing that you would once again have to help someone you love fight this ugly monster. And even though you aren't the one with the disease, I saw you asking yourself, why....why him, why now, why ever. Why my family AGAIN?! I saw you look deep in to my eyes and know that I will be here with you every step of the way.